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Size and what it matters to me

“got called fat by a paper & must say,on a bad day & just in general being a girl & getting called fat can suck. but more importantly,the main thing that concerns me is that one of you,a normal shaped non model sized girl could read that shit & feel down on yourselves too! so just incase,it’s ok to be a size 12 & you don’t have to be hungry to be happy! riot not diet 4 life. V was so much fun,can’t wait for more tour.” Kate Nash on facebook

Being a girl is pretty hard, you have to look pretty, be kind and nice, be individual and just yourself plus: be skinny.

Now that the new year has come everyone is talking about getting rid of some extra pounds (mostly) she doesn’t need. In the bookstores of my town are huge windows full of diet books, health books, yoga(instead THIS is healthy and well for you) and so on, I could write a whole page about it.

I was always pleased with my body, when I was a young girl I always used to say “I want to get bigger, I’m too skinny”… I was really skinny as a girl, I could eat what I wanted, I didn’t become bigger.I did sports and have gardeners as parents, maybe that is a reason why I didn’t really become big at all (although I had bad eating habits when I haven’t been a vegetarian yet)

I think when I turned 20 that changed. I still ate a lot but, instead of all the years before, I gained some pounds. And didn’t really care. I didn’t have a scale to weight myself, if I still fit in my favorite trousers it’ll be fine… But also that changed.

So I put it lower and lower in the drawer so I won’t be reminded of this really cool trousers, I still don’t fit in anymore. Do I want to fit in again? Kind of…

Even if I am always saying I am happy with my body, my size and my heaviness lightness, I am not. I don’t know, when this change came, but it did. And I am here to say it out loud. When the clock strikes six in the afternoon I am always thinking about food: I am hungry and I say to myself: No, don’t eat. But why??? And I have to say, I am not “fat” and I don’t care if others are.

I think it comes with EVERYBODY TALKING about sizes and pounds and whatever… No one is really talking about feeling well and happy in their bodies but being skinny… I still don’t get why my mind is also spinning around that, but it is. And I am trying to change that.

I have a normal size, some little curves, they could be more I suppose :D

When I saw the ad of this issue http://issuu.com/plusmodelmag/docs/plus_model_magazine_plus_size_january_2012/61

I was so happy, that some people really think about what lifestyle and fashion magazines can do to women.

I’ve just been reminded of a photography of Kate Winslet in some bullshit magazine, where she wears a gorgeous dress(I love the idea of this dress!) by Stella McCartney and the category she was in was like: Do and Don’t.

She, in sight of the magazine, was a don’t. In their opinion she was looking fat in that dress, but actually it fitted her perfectly just as sewn for her body. They just don’t see that, clothes actually have to “fit” people and not being lose around them. What do you think? Is she “fat” in that dress? Come on!

But there is hope: Some magazines in Germany (all around the “Brigitte“) are only advertising with “No-Models”, normal women like you and me, and I think this is the future I am talking about hopefully! And also the Suicide Girls (Love ’em!) also host normal and plus sized girls, and no models :)

So I have to say a few more little words to all these magazine authors:
Shut up and fuck the hell off!

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17- Februar 2009: Wow

Wow… ich merke gerade, vor zwei Jahren hab ich den Blog begonnen: Happy Birthday Blog!!!

Vor zwei Jahren zog ich für einen viel zu kurzen Monat nach Berlin, um dort ein Praktikum zu machen, bzw. zwei ;) Do you remember, sweet memory? Es war eine so tolle Zeit, danke nochmal an D & T, dass ihr mich so lieb aufgenommen und ertragen habt! I really miss the time, on my bicycle… Das war das tollste… Mit dem fahrrad durch Berlin ;) Mann, will, zurück…

Mein Leben nimmt seltsame Formen an, zur Zeit nur noch PartyPartyParty wenn ich daheim bin mit meinen Mädels, es ist eine tolle Zeit!!!!

Weshalb wollte ich eigetnlich schreiben??? Ich weiß, da war was…

Es wird ein teures Jahr, neue Muse, neue Placebo, aber zuerst die neue…Trail of Dead… ich werd arm… aber Festivals, diegroßen zumindest, werd ich nich besuchen… zu teuer zu stressig :(

nur zur Erinnerung, der Song ist eigetnlich von den Arctic Monkeys :)

“Fluorescent Adolescent”

You used to get it in your fishnets
so now you only get it in your night dress
Discarded all the naughty nights for niceness
Landed in a very common crisis
Everything’s in order in a black hole
Nothing seems as pretty as the past though
That Bloody Mary’s lacking a Tabasco
Remember when you used to be a rascal?

Oh that boy’s a slag
The best you ever had
The best you ever had
Is just a memory and those dreams
Not as daft as they seem
Not as daft as they seem
My love when you dream them up…

Flicking through a little book of sex tips
Remember when the boys were all electric?
and now when she tell she’s gonna get it
I’m guessing that she’d rather just forget I
Clinging to not getting sentimental
Said she wasn’t going but she went still
Likes her gentlemen to not be gentle
Was it a Mecca Dobber or a betting pencil?

Oh that boy’s a slag
The best you ever had
The best you ever had
Is just a memory and those dreams
Weren’t as daft as they seem
Not as daft as they seem
My love when you dream them up
Oh, where did you go?
Where did you go?
Where did you go? Woah.

Falling about
You took a left off Last Laugh Lane
You were just sounding it out
You’re not coming back again.

Falling about
You took a left off Last Laugh Lane
You were just sounding it out
You’re not coming back again.

You used to get it in your fishnets
so now you only get it in your night dress
Started all the naughty nights with niceness
Landed in a very common crisis
Everything’s in order in a black hole
Everything was pretty in the past though
That Bloody Mary’s lacking in tabasco
Remember when you used to be a rascal?

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28-JANUAR-2009- Of Moons, Birds and Monsters

Hallo da draußen, is da jemand?

So ähnlich lautet der Titel vom Sofies Welt Autoren Jostein Gaarder, ein süßes Buch über Mikael oder so, der einen kleinen Bruder erwartet und in der Nacht dessen Geburt eine seltsame Bekanntschaft macht…

Ja, wir schreiben Januar, scheinbar habe ich alleine eine Zeitreise schon in den Februar begonnen, wow… gut dass noch nich Februar is, denn dann hab ich nur noch einen Monat bis zu meiner Zwischenprüfung…

Vor fast 2 Jahren hab ich übrigens angefangen, hier zu schreiben… In der Großbeerenstraße Kreuzberg, Berlin… Oh Mann, wenn ich so zurückdenke… ich wäre schon gerne dort!

Ich höre zur Zeit sehr viel Kate Nash, Lykke Li und etwas Anouk… mir fehlen die Frauen in meinem Leben ;)
Irgendwie gerade nichts interessantes, oder doch… mhh, nö!

Wobei…
Nate und Jojo haben tatsächlich unabhängig voneinander gemeint, ich sollte mal ein Buch schreiben…. jaaaaaa, ich weiß… das wollt ich ja eh schon immer mal machen, bla.
Das Problem bei der Sache ist: Ich bin erst total begeistert von einer Sache, dann beginne ich, werd vielleicht sogar fertig damit, und ein paar Wochen später find ich es kacke!!!
Vielleicht ist das auch der Grund, weshalb schon seit knapp 2 Jahren meine kleine Fernsehserie mit dem 9-Jährigen Mädchen in meinem Kopf feststeckt… ich hab schon so viele Charaktere und Ereignisse in meinem Kopfkino abgespeichert… aber ich trau mich nich, sie aufzuschreiben, in der Angst, dass es mir bald nich mehr gefallen kann…

What shall I do with the drunken sailor???

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